A letter to my baby girl on her 1st Birthday

October 13, 2015

I can’t believe you are turning one. Where has the last year gone? This time last year I had no idea you would be here in less than 24 hours. Just the niggling worry that something wasn’t right that you weren’t happy. Waiting from when they confirmed you weren’t happy to when I had you in my arms was terrifying. Lying there concentrating trying to feel you move, to know you were ok. The operating theatre was scary, your Daddy stroked my head and was there for both of us, worried too. You came out crying and calmed when they placed you on me, under my gown and covered with a towel to keep you warm. I tried to look at you, to see your face, but you were too high up. They had to squeeze you on me as the rest was being operated on. It didn’t matter though. I could feel you on me, warm and breathing and the relief I felt is something I don’t think I will ever feel again.

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I made up for not initially being able to see you properly over the next few days, weeks and months. I will never get bored of looking at your beautiful face. I can remember watching you have a cuddle with your Daddy, I wasn’t feeling great after the section, but watching the love between you melted my heart. It still does now. You are so lucky to have him as a Daddy. He loves you so much!

This last year has been tiring, emotional, amazing and beautiful. The hazy newborn days were full of cuddles and sleep and milk. I try to cling on to the memories and sometimes it seems so clear like it was only yesterday and others it seems like a lifetime ago. I look at pictures of you so tiny and want to pick you up out of the photo and breathe in that newborn smell again.

We have watched you grow and change so much this last year. You are no longer a tiny helpless baby. You are turning into a little girl before our eyes. Each moment, each first I treasure as you are our last. I will never again watch a baby learn to crawl, takes those first steps and say Mama.

As you wobble towards us with a smile on your face I’m so proud of you and I know I will continue to be proud of all of your achievements. I want so much for you, but most of all I want you to be happy, to know you are loved and to believe you are beautiful on the inside and out.

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So my beautiful baby girl. I love you so much, Happy Birthday!

32 responses to “A letter to my baby girl on her 1st Birthday”

  1. sarah says:

    Oh yeah I’m crying now! So so lovely.
    Happy Birthday Ava! #PicknMix

  2. Robyn says:

    Such a beautiful post! My first is turning one in 3 weeks, and your post made me think about this time last year when we thought he was still 2 months away (he was prem). Incredible how one day can change our lives forever. I’ve been so excited thinking about plans for celebrating the first birthday that it hadn’t really occurred to me to take some time to remember the incredible day that he was born. Thanks for reminding me what we’ll really be celebrating <3 #PicknMix

  3. Catie says:

    Really beautifully written and many congratulations on your little ones big day I hope it’s extra special. #picknmix

  4. Mum in Brum says:

    Beautiful post. I can’t imagine how worried you must’ve been during your labour and the relief you must’ve felt once you knew everything was okay. Our baby girl is ten months now and I can’t believe how fast she’s developing at the moment, they really are a joy at this age. Although I’m a little worried about when she starts to walk/ run into everything! Fun times ahead #PicknMix

  5. What a lovely letter! I cannot believe where the time goes. It is such a magical time when they are growing up yet it goes so quickly. #Picknmix

  6. Jen says:

    How beautiful! It is truly so incredible. That first year and all of the moments on this journey of motherhood even with the wild range of emotions are truly worth it. You captured that in your post, When I was first pregnant with my son, I cried a lot due to hormones and also being scared of the change it would all bring. I questioned myself and if I could do it. However, isn’t it amazing how much these little people change us. With all of the ups and downs, I could not imagine life without my son. He has made me into my best self yet. Anyways, enough of my ramble. Happy birthday to your precious beauty and as always, amazing post. #PicknMix

  7. Ah what a sweet & touching letter! The first year goes by so quickly but there are so many changes & developments in that short time. It really is an amazing year! This will be a lovely letter for your daughter to read when she is grown up. Thanks so much for hosting #picknmix x

  8. Awww beautiful and you daughter is beautiful too 🙂 She is soo lucky to have such a fab mummy 🙂

    #picknmix

    Gemma xx

  9. ahhh such a lovely post. Happy 1st birthday young lady xx #PicknMix

  10. Tracey Abrahams says:

    Happy birthday little one. I remember the joy of just looking at my newborns face, there really is nothing more precious in the world.
    Its lovely that what was obviously a difficult birth for you is also soething special for you to look back on. #Picknmix

  11. Rachel says:

    Aw this gave me goosebumps! Beautiful #PicknMix xx

  12. What a beautiful letter to your daughter. And happy birthday little lady. The first year is such an emotional and amazing time #picknmix

  13. So lovely! The line about just wanting her to be happy made me choke up x #picknmix

  14. Aww what a lovely post!Time flies by doesn’t it.I feel sad knowing I’ll never had a tiny baby again but then I also think now they’re a bit older they are great fun and the newborn milk monsters are hard going with no sleep.I saw her little walk,clever girl!!Hope you had a fab birthday little lady xx #picknmix

  15. Jenny Eaves says:

    Beautifully written! Happy birthday to your baby girl as she becomes a toddler. 🙂 x

  16. Ahhh, this is so so lovely! Sometimes it feels like you’ve blinked and missed everything doesn’t it, they grow up so fast. My little man is 3 next month and it just makes me feel so emotional thinking about it! #picknmix

  17. Beth says:

    Had a tear reading this! Such a beautifully written post. Happy 1st birthday xxx
    They grow up to quickly don’t they x

  18. Hannah says:

    Such a lovely post, I remember writing some posts before my children’s birthday it’s crazy how fast time goes isn’t it #picknmix

  19. Steph Oakes says:

    What a gorgeous post to your daughter and happy birthday little lady! My littlest is just coming up to 16 months, it’s crazy how quickly time flies isn’t it x

  20. Beautiful post. Happy birthday little one!

    They do grow up incredible quickly. I am sure I only just became a mother and yet somehow I have a 4 year old and an 8 year old. How?!!

    x

  21. Maria says:

    What a lovely post! Happy 1st Birthday gorgeous girl #picknmix

  22. Ashleigh says:

    This is so lovely! Yeah ill admit it, it kind of made me cry!

    Commenting from #Love2Blog

  23. Emily Harvey says:

    Such a lovely letter to your beautiful little girl, must admit I did have a tear in my eye! Hapy 1st Birthay! Its amazing how quickly the years fly by. Glad I found your lovely blog (am now following)

    Emily x #Love2Blog

  24. Happy birthday! Im not sure what happens with babies but blink and you miss it, the quote is certainly true the days are long *very very long* but the years are short x

  25. Karen Grosz says:

    Love stories about the birth, looking back. Happy birthday to your one year old and congrats to you on being a Mom for this past year.

  26. Emma says:

    What a beautiful letter! Time flies and they grow so fast. Happy 1st Birthday to your daughter x

  27. What a lovely letter! I have written letters to my daughter before I ever started blogging and now I’m thinking of sharing too! Very inspiring!

    Angela

  28. This is beautiful! Birthday bring back so many memories and bring up so many emotions #picknmix xx

  29. Ashleigh says:

    It’s just an amazing post, hopefully she can look back at it one day! #PicknMix

  30. amanda says:

    This is such a lovely, heartfelt letter. awww I yearn for those new born days again – I know they are sleep deprived but there is something so special when you first meet your baby and they’re so utterly dependent on you xx

  31. Such a beautiful post. I have to say you look amazing at 39 weeks! Wow! #PicknMix

  32. Love this post! I’ve loved watching her grow through your blog 🙂
    Stevie xx

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