We need to break up, our relationship is toxic and I want out. I’ve been thinking about it a lot recently and the truth is that I can’t have you affecting my relationships with my children and my partner, they’re more important to me than you.
I don’t want to cheat on them with you anymore!
Over the last few years you’ve become like a drug, an addiction. I can’t go a day without using you, I know where you are constantly and think about you often. You make my interaction with the real World less real, everything at the touch of my fingertips I scroll through other peoples lives, ignoring my own.
When I’m feeling down, I look at you for longer and you take advantage of that, you feed off my anxiety sucking me in to social media that only serves to make me feel worse.
Somehow so controlling you make me feel like without you I will be missing what’s happening, I will be missing out, that I’m a better person with you and that I need you. The reality is that you are the one making me miss out on my life, the life right in front of me a life that would be perfectly great without you.
When I take a picture, a video clip of my beautiful children you distract me. Those memories I want to cherish by taking a photo of I’m then missing right before my eyes, because instead of watching and playing with them, I’m looking at you. Distracted by an email or a message, things that can wait that you make seem urgent.
I don’t want something to happen to me suddenly and my children to have memories of me with you instead of them. Images in their mind of me staring at your screen saying “In a minute” when they are asking me to look, to show them I love them.
I don’t want to get to five years, ten years in the future and look back at their early days when they are so needy and you provided me with a break, to realise how much that break made me miss.
I’ve fallen out of love with you.
I’m not sorry. I’m just sorry it’s taken me this long to realise.
I’m breaking up with my phone!